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• Weather: cloudy, too warm
• Mood: ok
• Weight: don't ask - I'm frustrated (haven't reached my goal yet)
• Soundtrack: The Caffrey Brothers

Well, here I am again. Kindly reminded of someone I don't even know personally yet, that I should keep up my good start in writing my blog. And right he is. The reasons I haven't written for such a long time are various: laziness, too little time, too much to tell...whatever.

Anyway, I'm now officially a Geordie!!! Yes, that's right. I was adopted by my beloved north-east this July at my graduation. *sniff* I miss England...

So now I'm in the job hunting process and there has come up a possibility. Everything sounds good so far but it's not sure yet. It would give me a great start in the music branch and help me to get fantastic contacts. On the downside it'd still be here in my hometown. I wish I could find something like that in London. As I said before, I miss England and I know that's where I feel like home. Honestly, I was even crying when I stood on the ferry in the morning when we arrived in Newcastle in July. Here in Germany is where my parents are, but somehow I feel that England is the place I belong to. Isn't that strange? Maybe I've lived there in a former life? Who knows...

Anyway, someday I'll move back. And someday I'll meet my dream man. And someday I'll be happy again...

In the meantime it's 10.30pm and I'm really proud of myself. I've actually dragged myself to the gym and went to a class called Ballet Balance. Yay! I feel like crap now and realised that I'm far from fit, but I want and must keep up the good start! I so want to get into a routine and manage to get that feeling that I don't feel comfortable without sport. Probably my goals are once again to high but one should never aim at mediocre, right? I want to get past that anxiousness when going to the gym on my own. Oh well, there's so much I want.